old writing

Playing on archive.org today, with the wayback machine. Thought I'd post some from my archives.

Everything is in constant flux.
The only thing that is certain is that nothing is certain.
Everything is destined to change at any time
thus the greater truth is also in constant flux and therefore unattainable.
Since the greater truth is unattainable this leaves us free to stop the
search for the greater truth which only leads to confusion and live life instead.
Everything is nothing and nothing is everything.

In high school when a person is having a problem it seems as though
life itself has stopped, as though the world has stopped spinning.
Within a number of years these problems are hardly remembered much less
causing the world to stop spinning,
and so what felt like everything turns out to be next to nothing.
Yet, these problems at the time really are everything
to the person involved sometimes to the point of causing suicide.

If people realized the state of flux they would never take their own lives.
In living life a person learns small truths.
These small truths add up eventually to form a greater truth.
It still will never be reached and is in fact different for each person, changing with experience.

I refuse to search for the greater truth.

I will instead note smaller truths that will help me live life to the best of my ability.
I will smile in your direction at every chance I get.
I will learn to enjoy the noise my brother makes when he's here because
it's much better than the silence that would be if he wasn't.
I will write out my ideas because they are as valid as anyone else's.
I will read anything I can get my hands on that will better my understanding of life.
I will seek that person who understands best where I'm coming from.

When I find him I will reach out and hold his hand when I have that impulse
rather than worrying about reaction from his side.

I will smile in your direction at every chance I get.
I will share what I'm thinking ( I think you're a beautiful human being)
because it's important to have thoughts out in the open where they can do some good (you're also important to me)

This may not be the greater truth but it is a small part of the greater truth.
The greater truth is in constant flux.
The fact that the greater truth is unattainable does not mean the search should be discontinued,
the search should instead be changed to accommodate the changing.
Search for smaller truths.
Love is a smaller truth.
Rather than getting lost in this search for greater truth and pushing away those who care
reach out and tell those you care about that you care. (I care about you.)

Stop worrying so much about how to reach that which can't be reached anyway.

It's like air - all around and seemingly nowhere,
grasping for stars,
chasing down moonbeams,
the search for the end of the rainbow as a child.

Everything is nothing, nothing is everything.

Love and connections, combined searches for smaller truths make it all worthwhile.

If this speaks to you, it was written for you.

Care to help me search?